Saber Rattling

Being a thinker-strategist, most of my conversations resemble a fencing match.  The words and the phrases they are used in is the sword weilded in my hand.  The goal is always playful banter but the sword-edges can still be sharp.  The responses I do or don’t receive determine whether my blade met steel or flesh, resulting in unintended wounds.  If the response is favorable, I continue with another playful thrust, usually predetermined but altered as the situation demands.  It should be noted that if I didn’t have a conversation planned out to some extent, it would never take place.  Someone once said that a good plan is one that can be altered.  When the response is silence, however, the only explanation I can find is that my sword wounded, when all I wanted was a friendly sparring match, engaging in serious dialogue.  This causes me to rethink my strategy and pull back to fulfill an obligation I feel I have acrued.  When there is no felt obligation or direction as to how to proceed, it becomes the person’s responsibilty to make me aware of it.  Yet, silence is decidedly not helpful in this, but often the only response I am to expect.  Is it somehow on my shoulders to break this deafening silence with thought, caught between an uncomfortable quiet and an unconscious urge to rectify something I’m ignorant of?  Something of my integrity is percieved damaged in one’s eyes.  Does not my character and my God demand I guard my reputation with honor?  The Bible talks about guarding one’s good name, for one’s reputation reflects the God one serves.  So then, how has my integrity been compromised?

JA Menter 3

Shaky knees after running are by design.  (Explanation will be forthcoming)

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3 Responses to Saber Rattling

  1. Mom says:

    Silence in response to a blog? Or silence face to face? Face to face a little “What do YOU think?” could go a long way. On here I’m not sure the remarks are always perceived as a conversation and thus perhaps not always responded to. I don’t think a lack of response should be interpreted as a compromise of your integrity. You say what you think. If you didn’t THAT would be a compromise of your integrity, not not saying what will illicit a response. If you want thoughts about a specific thing from a specific person, bring up the topic again to that specific person. Don’t assume anything. Silence can be golden, or contemplative, or confused, or any of a number of other things. Sometimes dialoging is just hard, like running through a mud hole, You have to just keep going.

  2. JA Menter 3 says:

    this isn’t about here. I understand perfectly that no response isn’t always a bad thing. I’m refering to face-to-face conversations or those similar to that. In blogging, I never expect a response and that would not sway me one way or the other in terms of content, as even now, I have about 6 topics piling up on me to blog about eventually. However, the perceived compromise of my integrity is not related, even, to the silent response in a face-to-face conversation, yet it is something I know to be very real, though I do not believe my integrity has been compromised at all.

  3. Mom says:

    So, is there someone who doesn’t think your words and actions agree, or is this the whole Rom. I don’t do what I know to do – I do what I know I shouldn’t do conflict of flesh against spirit?

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